OH MY GOD. How is this day already here. This entire week I’ve been having mixed emotions about my tiny babies turning TEN. TENNNNN! HOW?! I can’t handle this you guys.
I honestly don’t know what to write in this post because I can’t explain these emotions.
On one hand I’m so excited that they are little grown women. I LOVE their independence and their personalities. They are a lot less “work” and a lot more fun (not that my toddlers aren’t fun.. it’s just, different). This is the age where they don’t need your constant attention but they also aren’t out partying with their friends. It’s a REALLY good age. I know when they are 19 and in college, when I’m laying in bed worrying about them, I’ll miss this stage right here. Knowing they are safely in their beds in the next room, not talking to boys or DRIVING. Oh god.
On the other hand, I got teary eyed realizing they didn’t get one single barbie or baby doll for their birthday. WHAT. They care more about their caboodles, roller blades, and clothes. I miss the days they would come into my bedroom at night because they were scared or when they just wanted to cuddle with me on the couch. It literally seems like yesterday that I was planning their Yo Gabba Gabba 2nd birthday party. They don’t even have themed parties anymore! WHYYYY. Don’t worry guys.. I still force them to wear bows and matching clothes. 😉
To my first babies,
McKenzie and Kasey, you have been the light of my life since I was 18 years old. We grew together as a tiny family. I cherish the days of being in our first apartment, just the three of us. I was so proud of the life I was providing for you, which is funny to think about now because we had the bare minimum. I cried when I had to bring you to daycare because I wanted nothing more than to stay home with you every day. Both of you could have cared less about me when I dropped you off though, you had friends to get to. You have always been that way…outgoing, friendly, playful girls. I love that about both of you. I know that we did something right while raising you because the amount you care for others amazes me. I know you would never put anyone down or intentionally hurt someone – your sweetness has always made me so proud.
I couldn’t have asked for better big sisters to Harper and Mason. I was worried bringing in two more babies when you had been my only babies for 7.5 years. We still referred to you as “the babies” before Harper and Mason came, haha! You really grew up and matured during your first year as big sisters. You were instinctively motherly and caring and you still are. I love watching you come home from school and scooping them up before you even take off your backpacks. I love seeing you let them play in your room even if you’re gritting your teeth as they destroy it.
Most importantly I love the love you have for each other. Having a twin sister is something truly special. You will always have a best friend. Someone who will know all your secrets, even though you can come to me with anything and everything… I know you won’t. I’m glad you will have your sister there for those times. I cannot wait to see how your sistership grows through middle school, high school, and college.
I know that this life has big plans for you. I will be there every step of the way to help you grow, as you helped me grow the last 10 years.
I love you so freaking much it hurts.
Love,
Mommy
